I've been pondering on this for days. Here I am, writing it down, committing it to memory. I realized that holding on to something that doesn't want to be held back is a waste of time and energy. I am opening myself up to negativity, mediocrity, failure, even sabotage. I might as well accept it. With acceptance, we can move forward, dictate our own terms and take control. In a sense, I feel free, free from frustration and failed expectations.