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My second quarantine birthday is coming up.  I had a simple celebration last year.  This year won't be too different.  I didn't get to buy myself a decent gift last year.  This year, I will make up for it.  I had planned on having a birthday shopping spree.  But, with Covid cases on the rise, I decided to postpone that too. I currently lack the inspiration to bake and try out new recipes, thanks to on-going home renovations.  I figured, an online demo baking class will give me inspiration.  So, this morning, I attended a baking class as a gift to myself.  Hopefully, my kitchen gets fixed soon so I can try out the new recipes.  Watch out for those. 

I can feel it in my bones.  I have that tingly feeling that my plans are slowly unfolding and it is going to work out.  Do you get that feeling too?   Is that what they call manifesting?  ------------------------ The past year brought a lot of burden to all of us.  However, I do realize that the recent months have brought great things too.  Our prayers have been answered and are still being answered.  The hard work paid off too.  We just had to be patient and trust in His plans for us.  We also had to pay attention to the signs.   So, if you want something badly, pray really hard for it.  Be specific too so you'll never second guess it when your prayers are answered.

There are 7 people in our household, including our house help.  The burden of making each of our birthdays special falls on my shoulders.  7 out of 12 months in year, I plan a celebration for the birthday celebrant.  Then, factor in Christmas and New Year's Eve celebrations.  I usually bake a cake for these special days too.  This is really draining and I am running out of options.  During this time of pandemic, I plan meals 3x a day.  My children ask what we're having for the next meal when we've barely finished what's laid on the table.  I am fed up.  (Pun intended).  I am past the Pinoy, Japanese, Korean, Italian and Thai food cravings.   How I wish I can take my family out for a meal, where they get to decide what to eat. What irks me is my birthday is coming up in a couple of weeks.  I do not want to tire myself preparing for my own celebration.  I never bake my own birthday cake too.  I need ideas.  What do I order?  Where? Ugh.

What is bliss?  We often hear it in phrases like "marital bliss" or "ignorance is bliss."  They say bliss is eternal happiness.  But for us living mortal lives, we know that isn't always true.  There are moments of happiness and unhappiness.   So, maybe, bliss is contentment.  "Steady lang," in our vernacular.  It is that stage in one's life when one realizes he/she received everything he/she prayed for. It's funny because it often comes with paranoia.  We wonder how long it will last.