Cutty

This question has been on my mind lately.  I've been feeling unmotivated since the workweek started.  I was able to overcome them in the past.  Now, this feeling has been coming back quite frequently.  It lingers too.  Is this cabin fever?  Is this quarantine-fatigue?   I do not know. I've been racking my mind for an answer to this question.  Here is what I came up with... ...Change of scenery.  I think I need to get out of this routine for a little while.  I desperately want to travel but I get anxious when I am around "unprotected" people. ...Good food.  I need a feast for the eyes and for the soul. ... Chocolates and Coffee.  The sugar and caffeine didn't help. ...Exercise.  I need to tire myself out.  Maybe the fatigue will reset everything. ... Essential oils.  These have been effective for me when it comes to stress management.  I have yet to find the one that would perk me up. ... Shopping. ...

For weeks now, I've been trying to process these emotions that engulf me.  I do not know if these are just hormones.  I've felt immense anxiety, loneliness, gratitude, pride (the good kind), anger, relief.  Many times I've been offended by people's selfish and greedy ways that I just couldn't help bursting into tears.  It is difficult to process.  I always have a hard time understanding why such behavior exists. I do acknowledge these feelings, I do not disregard them.  I bring out my emotional oils and sniff them till I feel better.  Most importantly, I pray long and hard that I overcome these negative feelings right away.  This is the most effective of them all.