Cutty

 We will never truly grasp the value of our parents until we become parents ourselves. Oftentimes, it is too late when we come to that realization.  My children helped bridge the gap between me and my father. I never knew what kind of superhero my mother was until I gave birth to my first child. Grandchildren can do wonders in a broken relationship.  This is why I sometimes wish that my siblings get to experience this while my parents are still around and mobile.  Maybe, they will realize that their world is bigger than their own selves.  That’s all for now, folks  

This question has been on my mind lately.  I've been feeling unmotivated since the workweek started.  I was able to overcome them in the past.  Now, this feeling has been coming back quite frequently.  It lingers too.  Is this cabin fever?  Is this quarantine-fatigue?   I do not know. I've been racking my mind for an answer to this question.  Here is what I came up with... ...Change of scenery.  I think I need to get out of this routine for a little while.  I desperately want to travel but I get anxious when I am around "unprotected" people. ...Good food.  I need a feast for the eyes and for the soul. ... Chocolates and Coffee.  The sugar and caffeine didn't help. ...Exercise.  I need to tire myself out.  Maybe the fatigue will reset everything. ... Essential oils.  These have been effective for me when it comes to stress management.  I have yet to find the one that would perk me up. ... Shopping. ...

Ever since the pandemic started, I haven't really attended any big gathering.  When I say big, I mean more than 20 people in a small enclosed space.  But, yesterday, I had to be present at such a gathering.  It was my cousin's wedding and I was asked to sing a few songs. I was surprised at how some people have such confidence in themselves that they are Covid-free and that they are not going to get the virus.  It was so alarming to see so many people in the wedding industry who have their masks improperly worn.  Photographers, musicians, sound technicians.  Some are completely without them in spite of constant reminders and big posters.  I was so nervous for myself and my family, most importantly for the newlyweds.  I couldn't bear staying in there that I had to step out.  That was when I realized I was weak and nearly shaking.  I was already regretting my decision to go to the reception.   Before settling down at the reception...